Do you see people who live alone and do things to feel less lonely that others might not understand? I was one of those people five years ago, when I first chose to live with a sex doll.
At that time, I lived in a small apartment in the city. I had a job, friends, and a social life… or at least it looked like I did. But inside, I still felt empty. I wanted the doll so I would not have to face rejection, awkward talks, or being lonely all the time. I thought it would make me feel better. People said it might not be healthy, but I didn’t care. I just wanted someone (or something) there when I came home.
The first few months felt strange. But after five years, I learned new things about myself and about life. I want to share my story–well… The good parts, the hard parts, and the lessons I learned from living with a sex doll.
The ‘4’ Good Moments
This is something my dolls gave me that I did not expect.
1. Coming Home and Feeling Less Alone
Having someone in the house made my small apartment feel less empty. My first doll, a 90-pound silicone BBW, was my roommate who never ate my food or complained about my music. I felt comfort hugging her at night. Her weight felt a lot like a real person, even though she had no heartbeat.
Some people might think it is sad (whatever), but having something shaped like a person to hug helped me feel less lonely. Sometimes I left her sitting on the couch with a shirt on so the room would not feel empty. Even my cats got used to her and sometimes slept on her lap.
2. Creating Small Routines
I started enjoying small things, like buying clothes at the mall or dressing the dolls in funny outfits. My second doll, a small one, wears a yellow sweater and khaki pants. I change her hat every day to make me laugh. It became a fun hobby. I even take pictures of them or make little scenes around the house.
Taking care of the doll became a strange… yet calming routine. Moving a 90-pound silicone doll into the shower felt like wrestling a big gummy bear. But washing, drying, and putting powder on her to keep her from getting sticky was almost relaxing. Doing these things made the doll feel more like someone I cared about… like a real person.
3. Learning About My Own Emotions
Living like this taught me that I didn’t just want to fulfill my sexual fantasies, but also hugs and closeness. I learned that I’m okay being alone, but I don’t like having no touch at all. The dolls give me something to hold so I can focus on my work and goals without worrying about dating all the time.
It has helped me think clearly about my feelings for real women. The doll works like an emotional helper. I learned that I don’t want a relationship simply to not be alone. I’d rather wait for a real connection while getting my need for touch at home.
4. A Safe Space to Explore
The dolls give me a safe space to try different positions and learn things I would be too shy to try with a new partner. With my 90-pound fat sex doll, I can practice moving her without worrying about hurting her or doing too much. It’s also a kind of exercise, using a lot of effort to move her around.
And oh… There is a kind of freedom in knowing you can’t make a mistake or be rejected. It is very safe, with no risk of STDs or unplanned babies, which makes me feel very calm. Plus, she never has a headache or says she is not in the mood.
3 Hard Lessons I’ve Learned
But not everything is good…
1. Loneliness Doesn’t Fully Go Away
Even though I like having her there, a doll is still a thing shaped like a person. There is no talking, no eyes that show feelings, and nothing that comes back to me. Sometimes, looking at her empty eyes at 3 AM makes me feel more lonely, not less.
Sure, it helps with sexual feelings more than masturbation, but it does not fill the empty feeling in your heart. You are mostly talking to yourself, and the pretend feeling can break if an eye moves wrong or a wire pokes through the silicone.
2. Judgment Is Everywhere
Having four dolls means I always have to be careful. When my first BBW love doll came in a big wooden box, I told the neighbors it was a ‘grandfather clock’ and hoped they didn’t ask to see it. Women can have a box of toys, but if a man has a doll, people often think he is strange or scary.
The feeling after sex (you know what it is) is kinda strong. It is weird and a little sad to stand in the bathroom at midnight, washing a 90-pound rubber doll with soap and thinking about your life. Sometimes… This feels more like cleaning a crime scene than a toy.
3. She is Temporary
Even though these dolls cost a lot, they do not last forever. Though she feels like real human skin, my TPE doll attracts dust, hair, and lint, and can get stains if I leave dark clothes on too long. Silicone dolls are stronger, but even my realistic BBW sex doll has small tears and the metal inside can start to squeak.
Eventually, thinking about what will happen to the dolls is very stressful. I worry about dying and my family finding a dressed-up doll in my bed. Getting rid of them is even harder–you either have to cut them into tiny pieces or risk scaring a garbage worker who might think it is a real body. LOL!
What I Look Forward To
In a few years, I am watching closely how AI and robots improve. A fat love doll or chubby love doll with big ass (probably like some Asian women or some anime characters) that can talk or has heat without needing 45 minutes with an electric blanket seems like the next step. I want a fat doll that does not feel cold or stiff, the one that gives me an immersive sexual experience. Yes… just take my money!
I also hope that people will stop thinking dolls are weird as more jokes and talks online make them normal. I look forward to a time when I don’t have to hide my big breast sex doll in a ski bag or under clothes in the closet every time a friend comes over. Fingers crossed.
Final Thoughts
Living with big booty sex dolls for five years has been a mix of exciting and very awkward experiences. They are not a replacement for real love, but for a single guy in the city, they are a fancy substitute that keeps me sane and out of trouble.
If you’re considering one to spice up your sex life, remember: not all big dolls are good. Don’t get a fat girl with huge ass, huge boobs, and plump breasts if she is too heavy to carry to the shower, or you could hurt your arm and have a very dusty, very expensive doll.
Also, always from trusted vendors like SY Doll, WM Doll, YL Doll, Irontech Doll, because they make high-quality TPE and silicone adult products with realistic proportions.
FAQs
How much do BBW sex dolls with huge breasts actually cost?
The price of a good doll depends on how it is made and what materials are used. From my experience, a good-quality doll often costs between $1,500 and $2,000. If you want something very realistic or custom-made, the price can go much higher, around $5,000 to $7,000.
Is cleaning real sex dolls as bad as everyone says?
Not at all! Many owners find it calm and enjoyable. You clean it by using a douche with warm water and antibacterial soap. After that, dry it well and add a little powder. This takes about 20 minutes to one hour. Many people enjoy this time because it helps keep the doll clean and in good condition.
How is sex with a realistic sex doll?
It feels very intense and can feel really good. At first, it is cold, but you can use warming rods or an electric blanket to make it feel warm, like a real person. It looks very real, and in the right position, you may forget it is a sex toy.
How do you move a 90lb life size sex doll with big boobs?
Think of it like exercise. To make it easier, you can put sandals on her feet so the metal does not scratch the floor. You can use a rolling chair to move her to the shower. Some people use straps to help hold the weight.
Are chubby sex dolls available?
Yes! There are many different kinds. Some dolls have bigger stomachs, curvy bodies, or fuller shapes. There are also many styles to choose from–even MILF sex dolls or pregnant sex doll models. You can choose the skin tone to match what you like. The possibilities are endless.
What’s the difference between BBW and skinny sex dolls?
BBW dolls are heavier and have more to hold. Many people like them for hugging and comfort. They are big, beautiful women or chubby women. Thin dolls are lighter and easier to move, but BBW dolls feel more real and soft.
Do manufacturers offer discreet shipping and affordable prices?
Yep, trusted manufacturers ship in plain brown boxes or wooden crates with no labels. This keeps your privacy safe. Prices are fair, and you can sometimes buy factory seconds for a big discount, often saving over $1,000.